That Face Loves Me 01/11/2018 2:20am

You sit.

I sit.

No matter where or what we get.

You say.

I listen.

I pay attention.

We talk.

I hear you, I understand but more and more I drift away from the conversation. You think I’m uninterested, but that’s far from true. I’m crazy about you and that’s never the case. I don’t reply because I’m studying your face. 

I’ve loved and lost and those lost have stained my brain with crying faces.

Those all are in the past and I’m nervous that nothing will ever last, so you go on and talk talk talk.

I’ll admire your face.

That face I see everyday right beside me. That face that motivates my every step. That face that pushed me out into the world and helped me discover just what kind of man I strive to be. That face that loves me. I want to memorize that face and cherish that face and make that face apart of my life forever. I’ll always have that wonderful face in my mind to remind me just why I’m alive. 

Talk talk talk. I hear you and I understand. I just needed some time to memorize your face.

"I'm Blue For You" Nov 7th. 12:42am

It's always you that come to mind. Your smile, your eyes, it's stuck on rewind. Replay then pause, and do it again. I could talk all day but I don't even know where to begin. It's clear to me what's next, what's true. But also I somehow don't have a clue. It's you, yet this is still new. I'm up, I'm down, I'm red, I'm Blue. For you, just you, And then all of them. My first, My past, my last, my best, my thrill, my curse, my dream, my next. What's that? You? Or just me...alone. Unmotivated, under appreciated, over confident, lost. Very obvious I have to work on me more. With that said, my hand is inches from knocking on your door. 

Soon.

"Reaching for the stars" 08/26/2017 2:16pm

You are the moon of my life.

Actually the sun.

Nothing shines as bright.

Nothing feels more right.

Tired of the stars so far away,

I need the closest one to lighten my day.

I need the breeze blowing soft and smooth

As we toast our glasses with some of the best beer ever brewed.

Clues to choose this unicorn are blinded by the curse of being born with a passion so deep for the stage that I throw away most of my money saved. Brave they say, but very lonely. Lost in my mind. Beginning to believe it's only I who can stand this kind of life. I strive for the best for me, and a partner tends to feel less likely. Stress is on my shoulders, but it's harder to carry as I get older. Money money money it makes me more hungry to achieve what I feel will move me towards a career in the future. Not so sure, but it's called an adventure for a reason. Give it a couple of seasons and I'll be closer to that star. Hopefully soon, but for now I'll continue to stare at the moon. 

Aphrodite 08/21/17 2:03am

She's the prettiest girl I know.

I'm mesmerized each time I see the show.

I'm willing to bet she'll never know.

But just for me I needed to explain my glow.

Can't believe it took me this long to fully appreciate her ability to drop the jaws of any man within a quarter mile. Sweet personality and sex appeal so intoxcating I would swear it was 95 proof. 

Every relationship has its problems on both sides, but this girl is flawless. Her Ex-boyfriends must have Sniffed some glue or lead paint when they were younger, because she couldn't make a mistake in my worst nightmare. 

The only way I can describe my level of attraction is to tell you what I believed an angel looked like when I was a young boy. You could compare the description and it's her. 

Flawless may not be the word. Perfection is usually boring and her flaws are actually just as sexy. She has cute insecurities, and she's down to earth. I feel like she view me as an equal. She believes in me and I admire her. I believe in her and she admire me. How is that true, how could someone so gorgeous, so smart, so magnificent; adore me to? Craziness. 

I just hope that she gets what she deserves. Life sometimes just doesn't take the express way and you usually get stuck in traffic on the local streets. I hate having to slow down for the speed bumps every quarter mile. But I feel like if anyone should have to take the street it should be me. She deserves the private jet. 

I could only imagine the love I would get from a woman like that. So Strong, so loyal and passionate about her man. The future looks bright. 

Anxiety 08/20/17 3:05am

a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome

The night time is the right time for most,

But usually i sit up thinking about my next post.

Can't sleep, won't sleep, and need all the help I can get.

Thinking of random stuff like if I'll beat my little brother in a bet.

Day time is different but I still feel pressure.

Thinking of my accomplishments and wondering if my life will measure 

Up to the stratosphere of my imagination.

Trying to avoid the haters and temptation.

When will I perform, when will I hold my kid,

Will I sit back and regret the things that I did?

Am I odd, why do I feel alone?

I know that's not true, because I have hundreds of friends in my phone.

It's hard to appreciate the times as they come.

I just have to remind myself that I'm more fortunate then some.

It's a gift and a curse to be fearless at times,

Because anxiety always finds a way to chime in and heat up my chill.

I will succeed, I guess I should view anxiety as a blessing.

Without it I wouldn't pay attention to the lessons.

I wouldn't think out of the box, I wouldn't double check my approach.

I wouldn't be able except criticism, I wouldn't learn from my coach.

Broke, confidence and dumb would be my future .

At less with anxiety, my final answer is usually sure, Pure, and thought through thoroughly.

I guess what I'm saying is;

 Anxiety is a part of me.

Stay True to You

Everyday you wake

Smile for goodness sake

Each day is new

Attack it and stay true

Stay true to you

When skies are gray & when skies are blue

Nothing can hurt you but you

So do what you do

Make these moves

Groove to the tune of the day

Change the beat if it's not going your way

Stay true , stay true to you

Love those you don't understand

Talk to others, build that brand

Do all the things they said you couldn't do

Stay true, stay true

Wipe away the sweat, wipe away the tears

Climb the mountains and conquer your fears

Make it so they don't even need a clue

Stay true to you, stay true

Give more then you take. Stay solid as oak

Make sure you and the fam are always woke

Celebrate the successes you already knew

But most of all, stay true to you

Two Way Path

Everything that I do is for you. I moved from the east to the west. I flew back and forth just to do what I had to do so that life would be easier and new. Why would you question my love. How could you answer "Will you Marry me" with "I can't do this". Who flipped the switch. How could you switch over night. How can I make this right! These Hot days in July can make fights boil, but not like this. What did I miss? You and I have something above most. My best friend had already prepared the toast. Smiles full of love occurred yesterday from you beautiful face, now that's not the case. Now you need space. Now you need to leave this place. Now it's not worth another moment. Now you want me replaced. Nobody ever wants to admit they were wrong, how could we last for so long and end so quickly. Did you lie to me? Was this a game? Because I'm starting to feel like I'm not the blame for your actions. It seems like you're communicating another conversation that I was never a part of. I told you my feelings but your feelings were balled up. Why fight. Please just be the light I need, Or admit I was just around to appease your greed for everything. Let me walk away with the truth. Because everything I've said is loose without my other half pulling the noose. 

Dom 7-12-17 3:08am

To The one I'll Love

Dear Love,

First and foremost, I love you more then you will ever know. You're the reason for my hearts everlasting glow. I had started to think you weren't possible. Through the years my path was steering through so many obstacles, but the stars aligned and pulled you near. That special moment you appeared made my heart stop. Not at first sight, through tunnels I eventually saw the light. So bright! It shined and slam, wham, bam, I'll be damned; You made it right. I never ever wanted to fight. Never needed to. It was easy. Thank you. I convinced myself it wasn't a thing. Love would never bring me happiness. I'd be depressed and drowning in sadness. Relationships failed. Divorce to my family is normal. Why Should I be different. Why would I believe you existed? I still don't. You are still an image in my head, but I love that jpeg. It makes this letter that much sweeter. You and I sweet as pie. No lie no lie. It makes me cry. I would die for you. 

I'm writing this because I witnessed my biggest fear with love. A poisoness relationship. I never want to see the day that another person wants to see me give up hope. You would never do that to me and I want to acknowledge you for that.

Thank you for showing me that I'm too hard on myself. Thank you for proving that my life isnt going to be like another life. Thank you for convincing me that I was correct in not settling. Thank you for believing me. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for being the best friend a guy could ask for. And finally Thank you for the smile on my face as I write this letter. 

Love, Love, Love,

Dom 7-11-2017 3:49am

Looking Up at You

I'm crazy about this girl!!

I sit up at night staring high in the sky, wondering if I will ever be her guy. So sweet need to gather myself. Should sleep but can't. Hope my mother loves her. Could see them getting drinks together. Her smile is stuck in my head. I can smell her hair laying in my bed. Everything that we have said to each other seems so sincere. I just hope that we both can make it clear how much this is real. She's the first girl I've lost my chill with. I'm thirsty and need some water for my pil...low hogger to quench her mind to kind of rewind this desire and play it back one more time. I'm jamming the memories to the front of my brain. Want to hear her name out loud. Same old feelings I lost came back, but the prize is you. What's new? EVERYTHING. Can't bring up feeings till I accept them. Makes sense in my head, just needs to be reread. My emotions have bled through my pores and onto the shores of the future. Crazy, craziness I can't explain. Love has a way of keeping me unchained to the past. Just found that feeling I've needed at last. Never crash, just complete that pass and it will open the gates to a new class of life and appreciation. Attention to detail is a must, but don't over think too much. Such and such will always influence my drive towards goals. Just keep in touch and never lust for those who betray. Eyes on the pretty skys tonight and forever.

Dom

7-7-17 4:26am

The First Kiss

“Looking back.....I’m a lucky bastard. I’ve had a lot of first kiss in my day, and each time brings different emotions to the forefront. I have some that ended better, some that went no where, some with woman I should have married, some drunk at a party with a girl that I don’t know(Sorry mama). With that said, The first kiss is maybe my favorite relationship moment. Now I know the back seat of a coach bus driving from Washington D.C back to STL with our mothers seating at the front of the bus is the perfect setting for a first kiss(Sorry mama), but my very first kiss wasn’t my favorite. NOPE. My favorite was in a black box, high school. Even I didn’t know it was coming. My best friend and I set it up perfectly. I saw her and her friend. I remember green costumes hanging on the rack, I smell a mix of shampoo and sawdust. Everyone just split away because it was our break during the rehearsal. I see her looking at me now with a smile. I’m looking directly at her. I tell my friend to play along. “I bet you I’ll kiss her”, “I bet you WONT!”....using our theatre voices to assure that she and her friend heard us. Even at this point I didn’t believe that I would kiss her. I stepped forward and MWAH! “I told you!”. I had a bigger smile then her! Who would have guessed she would be such a huge memory and part of my life, past and future...”

— Dom Thomas

RANT 1

09/10/15 till forever

“When you wish to the stars above, what do you wish for? Cars? Money? Fame? Wanna know what I wish for?

I wish that my brain actually knew what a normal life was. I have this image in my head of what normal is but I’m never gonna be there, I think normal to us is something we only dream about. Honestly, to a person on the street my life is no where near normal. I’m not gonna say I hate that but I don’t enjoy being in the dark all the time. I hate what I’ve built as normal in my head. I wish I could control-alt- delete everything and have a different mind set. I feel like these “lessons learned from my past” are actually bad habits that I can’t knock for some reason. I put myself in bad moods because of it and thats the worst.

Rant over”

What is Love?

What is love.... Thats the magic question... Is it an amount of affection... Or is it guidances and direction....is it the motion of emotions traveling within you brain...can it be trained? Is it only about what you claimed when you aimed your heart towards another, which that other may not have been ready for this brand new door to escape through.. Why go through when it may not be true? Should it always feel right and should it always be over the top... Its just so scary to think you could fall from the ceiling into the arms of nothing.. Should i always except a glove... Or should I wish to the stars above.. For this crazy thing we call love... But What is love? 

Dom

"Me and You"

One and two

me and you

what we do

stay true stay true

Through all the loops

 we jump and scoop

just trying to make

 that last second hoop

Insane yet sane

Our love remain

And everlasting chain

Connecting brain to brain

My heart your heart

What beautiful art

Still cool still smart

Nothing will tear us apart

Work hard play hard

Past days left me scarred

Never for me to disregard

My future days are starred

With you and me

Together we will be

Always filled with glee

This bright future I see

Dom